TAKE or LEAVE

it's 1 of my favorite song. i love it from the 1st moment i terdgr dkt radio lg, pdhal x dpt tngkp pun lg full lyrics die. by the way, bace lirik ni, especially ladies ;)

"Perfect Nightmare" - Shontelle

Sometimes we fight, sometimes I cry, Why don't I just tell him goodbye

Sometimes I should, but sometimes I don't

Build up the strength to say that it's wrong

Sometimes I hate, sometimes I love, Sometimes I hurt, sometimes I don't

Sometimes I wait for him to change. But it's okay, I've disguised the pain

And I don't ever wanna leave him alone

They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, yeahh

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it. I already know I don't deserve it

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting. This is my perfect nightmare

So when will I wake up and scream

No way, no way, no way,No way, no way, no way, no way

But if it's from you I don't mind hurting

This is my perfect nightmare, perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool, sometimes I let him know

Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door

Sometimes I feel safe, sometimes I really don't

Sometimes I promise that I'm ready to let him go

But I don't ever wanna leave him alone

They say I'm brainwashed but I'm in love with this man, oh oooh

Hoping he's changing, but I'm scared he's not

Can't see a way to leave, help me open my eyes

by the way, kalau korang bercinta. selalunya kita dengar, orang kata, siapa yg mintak putus tu 'memang kejam, sellfish, tak guna punya jantan/betina, ada orang lain lah tuh, dan lain-lain.' kan kan? lebih-lebih lagi, baru je putus, tengok orang tu dah ade bf/gf baru. perghhh. kalau single pun, tgk dia happy je, pdhal kita menonggeng-nonggeng ditinggalkan. memang rasa sakit hati nak cekik, bomoh je orang tu kan? pfttt.

tapi. bukan nak membuka pekung di dada, just, sekarang dah kali ke 4 sy serius bercinta. dan, 3 orang sebelum ni, semua sy yg minta putus. satu je sy nak cakap. --- kita tak tahu mungkin dia ada sebab yg kukuh utk putuskan hubungan. so, jangan terlalu melulu tuduh org ni tak guna, dan pentingkan diri.

depan sy maybe nampak happy. tapi belakang, sy menangis seorang, tuhan je tahu. sy minta putus, mcm tak de jln penyelesaian. tapi sy je tahu sy buat mcm tu sebab sy dah cuba yg terbaik utk hubungan tu. sy yg tak nak teruskan rasa sayang tu, tapi kadang sy buat tu sebab nak dia gembira, dan sy lihat dr jauh, cukup. mungkin ada banyak sebab. sy sakit nak mati ke, sy tahu dia ada perempuan yang lebih baik dan itu terbukti ke. siapa tahu kan? tak kan lah kita nak bagitau 1 dunia. oh pleaseee~~~ bunyinya cliche, macam drama berisiri, tapi tu realiti.

senang cerita. if kau tahu niat kau baik. kau tahu ni yg terbaik utk semua pihak, just go on dengan kepahitan tu. kau sabar je, kau tabah je, tutup telinga dengan makian dia, tutup telinga dengan anggapan buruk orang. Allah tunjuk kau baik ke buruk nanti, dan benda yang aku selalu percaya dari dulu sampai sekarang, yang benar tu memang akan menang... sooner or later.

perempuan ni. kalau yg jenis memang perempuan, which is bukan betina, kalau dia dah sayang kau sekali, dia akan sayang kau sampai bila-bila. maksudnya, sayang kau dengan cara berbeza walaupun mungkin takdir kau tak ada jodoh. jadi, kalau kau dah dapat perempuan yang cukup baik, yang sayangkan seadanya, ada 2 cara je. TAKE IT or LEAVE IT.

eh. ladies pun sama. dah dapat lelaki yang baik tu, hargailah okay ;)

pelangi petang

dear blog,

this is especially for u. i made it with all my heart...

i made it using 'paint' & it is my first drawing of the year.

i know it looks like i'm 4 years old, but. this is it.

i tried to imagine a capture of a rainbow over the sea.

so, here's a sea & rainbow. '-____-''

PELANGI PETANG

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu. Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku
Mencari sinar yang menerangi, Kegelapanku

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa. Sang suria kan menyinar jua
Membawa harapan yang menggunung
Bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi.Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan, Hati ini

Seharian waktu bersamamu. Tak terasa saat yang berlalu
Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti, Pergi jua...

dear blog,

sy si pelangi. yg gemar akan pelangi.

perangai seakan pelangi, sukar dijangka, bermacam ragam.

sy harap sy menjadi pelangi untuk semua org dlm hidup sy.

tp... *bertakung air mata*

tlg, jgn jd pelangi dlm hidup sy, jgn tinggal sy.

jgn gembirakan sy kemudian mebiarkan sy menangis...

tlg, jd... si mentari itu? tolong ya.

sincerely,

rainbow

27th may 2010

4 u i will

"Breakaway" - kelly clarkson

Grew up in a small town. And when the rain would fall down. I'd just stare out my window

Dreaming of what could be. And if I'd end up happy. I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out. But when I tried to speak out. Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here. But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly. I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish. Take a chance. Make a change. And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun. But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk. Take a chance. Make a change. And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze. Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean. Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors. Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on. Fly away, breakaway

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hidup ni mmg mcm ni kan...

kejap kte ketawa happy =)) , kejap lg kte menangis sdeyh plak... ;((

- http://www.facebook.com/aqilahamin

3:54pm

russian roulette stranded broken hearted

to. that used to be special someone. thank you for the last love letter.

this ain't a sarcastic post. ain't an angry or full with hatred post.

this is. a post of a heart.

she.

a bad girl.

russian roulette

Take a breath, Take it deep. Calm yourself', He says to me
If you play, you play for keeps. Take the gun and count to three.

Im sweating now, Moving slow, No time to think. My turn to go

And you can see my heart beating. You can see it through my chest.
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving. I know that I must pass this test
So, just pull the trigger

As my life flashes before my eyes. I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say good-bye. But its too late to think of the value of my life

stranded

I can only take so much. These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me to come back. I'm too afraid to show

If it's coming over you. Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave. That drags me out to sea
I wanna be with you If you wanna be with me
Crashing like a tidal wave I don't wanna be stranded

broken hearted

You're everything I thought you never were. And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that? You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you 'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say I know I'll be there at the end of the day

You say you've got the most respect for me But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away. Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say That I will be there at the end of the day

sorry 4 everything.

just leave it up to karma

a very good morning~ i guess i'm feeling better. (i keep on repeating the same thing everyday) as if i'm fully recovered from all the sickness and illness. no worries, i'm doing fine. i went to the clinic again yesterday, and i've got my antibiotic, allergy, and flu medicines. Dr. Mariam was surprised to see my face again, but then, she asked me to take a break. Dr, i've got more than enough break already. thee. she sends her regards to mama, as she usually did. went to pharmacy too, to buy my cant-live-without allergy cream. and, bank. hell yeah, i'm outta of money. T__T

another funny things, when it comes to my voice. sengau ah! ahah. i called mama yesterday, and i've told her that i'm not feeling well for the 1st time since she's not around. and, as i expected, she asked me to promise her, to go to the clinic again, and I did it. and yesterday, i take a look at a several fb profile of my histories... those friends or love one who left me, etc. some of them are different, and some of them, are still the same. and... u know what i afraid the most?

what i afraid the most, of losing those i love is...

when i'm losing the old them i used to know, that,

they become some1 new, those, i called strangers.

it's hurt. even the facts is, ppl change. hurm~

thanks 4 those who are still the same. =]]

well, they're some of them regretting the past, try to apologize to me, but, i wanna apologize too. i want to apologize for being sarcastic, and sorry that i didn't reply any of ur sms, ym, or anything related to it. i did, once a year maybe, but, it's hard for me. it's hard 4 me to 4get all the shits u've done, purposely or not. but still, i will always remember u. there's no doubt bout that. still i care bout u, and mark in my mind, it's ur bday. maybe i'll wish u 'happy birthday' through SMS, and maybe i don't. ironically, i will still said, 'happy birthday' at 12am sharp. far from here. even, u can't hear it. but i did.

i've heard about karma, b4, and i don't really believe it. but then, when it hit me on my face, i just, 'yeah... this karma things is so so so true' and, I've learned my lesson. what u give, u get back. if u did the nice things, then someday god will helps u. if u did the wrong, bad things, then evil will be there for u. it simple but, it works that way. the old Malaysian folks also said - sepandai pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh ke tanah jg. whuu~ that's creepy. of course i'm afraid if the whole world knows about my, erm, evil side, those mistake and etc. but, no one perfect aite. that'y y u've to apologize when u should b4 karma comes and punished u. =P

hurm, but that's life. naaaa... karma is always right. what goes around comes around. so, hye karma! it's good that u're here, once again =]]

alicia keys - karma

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore

And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door

And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me

And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave

Now you're Talking bout a family

Now you're saying I complete your dream

Now you're sayin I'm your everything

You're confusing me

What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me

Cause....

What goes around comes around

What goes up must come down

justin timberlake - what goes around comes around

Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world. You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away? I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe. Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Is this the way it's really going down? Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around. That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around. 'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

When you cheated girl. My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case. A scenario
Tale as old as time. Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody. To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody. That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy. You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

aku yang hilang.

aku rase. macam ramai yg perasan. aku lain. dah 2 minggu.

aku lost. utk sekalian kalinya. nape hari ni baru aku nak mengaku?

entah. sbb aku tak tahan sgt kot. lgpun blog aku. biarlah.

tak de tmpt lain aku blh jd sejujur dgn blog. ini pun bertapis.

terlalu ramai mata membaca, terlalu banyak spekulasi dibuat.

"haha.. pompuan sume same.. mane lah pg nye pompuan yg laen skit nieh???!"

satu tamparan hebat bila aku diperkatakan sebegini.

terasa murah. terasa tipikal. terasa bodoh. tp aku rase. mmg aku bodoh.

tak perlu terasa, sbb itu kenyataan. aku bodoh.

tapi sungguh. bertapa diri ini belum dikenali. tak mengapalah.

tuhan, tlg jgn jauh dariku. aku sesat.

aku sedang sakit. food poisoning. ye ke? siapa yg tahu, tahulah.

tp kesannya, dah seminggu. don't worry, aku tak turun berat badan pun.

1g pun tak turun. tp pening yg sentiasa. tambah dgn kemurungan.

mestilah makin teruk. bukan?

tidak jgk. depan fmly dan kwn2,bila berjumpa depan2, aku masih ketawa riang.

mungkin buat masa ini aku suka bersendiri, walhal perlu dielakkan.

tapi apa nak jd dgn aku? dah hampir 2 minggu... yes.

aku kena bangun. tp mcm mana? di mana? utk apa aku bgn?

ok. utk diri sendiri. utk keluarga. ahhh... tahun ni dah disember.

bila aku sekilas terpandang kalendar, baru aku sedar, hampir tamat 2009.

tahun apakah ini utk aku? it is not so bad, or so good either.

jd blhlah aku katakan 2009 - roller coaster year.

minggu depan aku dah mula final exam sem 6.

tp dgn keadaan terus begini? apa aku harapkan? 2.00 je? hell no.

hati aku dah terlalu numb, heartless. tp ke arah yg negatif utk diri sendiri.

aku jd tak fikirkan masa depan. tak fikirkan benda tu buruk.

mane pergi kesedaran semua tu? entah. tlglah.

kalau aku terus begini, mmg aku akan gagal. mati ditelan bumi.

geli hati aku. mengingat apa yang terjadi 2009 ni.

yg baik. aku ingt aku rindu shahli.. aku tak lupa kejutan terbesar 2009 tu.

thanks again shahli, zaid, nora. aku ingt, ttm masak steak utk aku.

aku ingt, akid, ayak, nora bwk aku ke look up point. aku ingt lg, finaz.

bwkkan mcm2 hadiah utk aku dr russia. thanks babe. aku ingt.

bday aku pun seronok. cukuplah dgn apa aku dpt...

yg buruk. aku difitnah. diserang. di blog sendiri. bertubi - tubi.

tp, aku tahu, tu bukan kerja seorang saje. salah seorang gadis tu, sungguh.

kau mengata aku tapi kau lagi murah. bodoh! ingat tuhan juga.

aku kata salah seorang, aku tak kata siapa, jd jgn cepat melatah.

lagi sadis, kalian tak kenal pun aku sebenar - benarnya. jumpa tak pernah.

tp sebab seorang lelaki je kan mcm2 tuduhan aku kena?

yg buruk. aku terpaksa buat operation mata sbb infection. sakit.

aku sakit telinga berminggu - minggu. sakit. pointer sem 5 aku turun.

mendadak. abah finaz & sherry pergi meninggalkan dunia. al fatihah.

eyann yg baik juga meninggalkan aku. takziah. sedih.

tp biarlah... life goes on. aku ok. selagi aku masih hidup ni.

maksudnya aku masih mampu. bukan?

sudahlah. hampir 8am. doakan aku selamat ke UIA gombak.

ini 1st class aku di sana. aku drive sendiri walaupun aku tak larat.

ah. mungkin mental je lemah. tak ape.

new ppl! here i come...

Allah, plz blessed me. tq.

kris dayanti

wanita biasa.

aku ini Wanita Biasa

Bisa Sakit Luka Karena Cinta

Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa

Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga

Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang

Kadang ku Rapuh Lemah Liar Merana

Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru

Sulut Gairah Jiwamu

ku Yang Dosakan Cinta Kekasih

Kekasih Hatiku Maafkan Aku

aku Wanita Biasa

Dingin Sepi Kerap Menyapa

Air Mata Jatuh Lukisan Raga

Kadang ku Kuat Setegar Karang

Kadang ku Rapuh Lemah Liar Merana

Maafkan Aku Bila Hasratku Keliru

Sulut Gairah Jiwamu

ku Yang Dosakan Cinta Kekasih

Hatiku Maafkan Aku

17th oct 09 - day 4 - heart.

17th oct 09. day 4 of the, changing-my-life-phase. 2nd day of, erm, u know~

rase cam da lame plak. rase mcm. lame sgt. urmm~ well hey. gerak blk kuching!

yeay yeay. jap je lg. bagusss nye awk aqilahhh x gi class 2 hari dah. x larat.

badan x larat. nnt kang pengsan ssh. hati larat. tkot bdan yg x blh trime.

owhhh... mulalah nnt habit ske termenung dlm plane. aiyooo. packing x start lg.

ala 3 hari je. baju tdow x yah bwk, bju duk umah tayah. bju jln je. erm.

ade yg x bwk luggage besar kang. bwk hand luggage je. blh? taleh. brg mesti bnyk jgk nnt.

sampai2 kuching nnt dlm 3pm. mama + abah x dpt ambik di airport. syahdu plak rase~

cett. bkn ape pun. nnt driver ambil dkt airport, pastuuu terus gerak g office abah.

ade open... open office? ke. ahah. ade jamuan rayeee. mama + abah mesti kene ade sane.

tuan rumah. so dr airport gerak trus gi sane. mesti muka sememeh je kan tgh leteyh.

x pela. mkn best3. uncle2 anak buah abah mesti simpankan mknan pnye. ta daaa~

mule2 pk jamuan raye kan, pakai bju kurung ke? tp x kan nak naik plane bju kurung.

wahaha. tammo2. budget esok pakai sneakers je. [abah pantang sy naik plane dgn flip flop]

bju kurung choc + crocs pink. blh? hahahahahaha XD ngok ngek~

ermmm... btw. heart. this is for u.

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you

I’m sorry for the things I’ve put you through

Before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy

I need to make you see

Oh, heart, I’m not sure it’s been long enough

To say that what I feel is really love

There’s just one way to learn, sometimes we’ll get hurt

And right now it’s our turn

Give it time, help me through

Heart, we can do this together

You’re my strength, you’re my soul

I need you now more than ever

Heart, all the hurt will soon be gone

If you’ll, if you’ll just keep on being strong

You will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in

And we’ll find love again

Heart, I know I’ve been hard on you

I’m sorry for the things I put you through

Please don’t you break on me, I need to make you see

It wasn’t meant to be

‘Cause you will always be my friend, so keep on hangin' in

And we’ll find love again

sorry that i'm too bz. te amo

private / public ; ta-daa. sudah public smula. hurm. nape private kejap? owhhh. sbb bz sgt x sempat ter-update, then nak edit, x edit2, + internet lembab mcm... tataw nak compare dgn ape, and, yet, ha. tuh je la main reason die. owh yarrr... bnykkk bnda nak cerita. tak tercerita.

bz / study ; sy dah sem 6. sepnjng bergelar student sem 6 dip of broadcasting ni, selama 2 months dah ni, sy rasekan, 1... kebz-an yg agak blh tahan jgklah. tp sy percaye degree, di IPTA lebeyh bz. owh hooo...kdng pk mampu x sy nnt? ecece. yerlah, plan abis dip nih cont with degree. mampu mampu. otak ok, semangat ok, semua pon jln. kan? ++ babeyh~!

blog layout ; white. i've told u i love white the most. and yet, simple aite? ok la tuh. background putih. then nak tulis ape2, blh buat tulisan semua colour masuk. jeng jeng jeng. ahah XD lg rainbow larhhhh!!!

final project ; owhhh. sy sgt laaaa bz dgn final project skrng ni. utk sem ni, ade 4 subj. 4 subj = major. makanya...ade jap. so far, ade 5 final project. utk VG2 = videography 2 ade 2 final project. semlm dah lepas 1 baru. maka ade 4 final project lg ye tuan - tuan. and. yg dah selesai, 1st final project of vg2 = talkshow - LifeStyle. photo will be uploaded later. t hee.

4 final proj left = in 7 weeks.

MCP = multi camera prod.

MCP = talkshow = live 2hours. *siot*

and, fyi, utk ini aje, MAYBE akan shooting mlm.

maybe dlm 8pm - 10pm @ 10pm - 12am.

but prepare props ape semua bout 1 day jgklah.

VG2 = videography 2

VG2 = musical prog

BJ = broadcast journalist

BJ = news = 15 minutes news.

Directing = drama sebabak.

15 @ 30 minutes. x ignt dah.

*dang dang dang*

class ; based on my schedule, sy akan FREE *kononnya* on tuesday + wed. but memandangkan shooting ade je every week, makanya... mmg hari2 lah berkunjung ke kolej tercinta tuh. and, mostly mmg sampai mlm. like the whole day. pernah dr 8am - almost 7pm. well, what am i expected? hari tu sempat dgr en.zul @ lect MCP ckp nak buat class dr 3pm - 12am. huwaaaaaaa. tataw la die btol2 ke x cuz muke die serious. we'll see next week.

cuti mid-term ; owh ye. sy sepatutnya mmg rasmi cuti seminggu dr 3th oct - 11th oct. tp, al maklumlah. mmg mcm x cuti. and yer, result sem 5 baru dpt semlm. tp, sy ambik result dkt kolej pagi ni kot. jgn tnye eh result sbb las sem sy amattt malas + xde kesedaran langsung. tataw la pe jd but seriously tkot kalo ade repeat + tkot pointer under 3.00 + tkot pointer dlm 2.33 - 2.67 je. sian mama + abah T__T

on9 ; makanya. sy pun jrng2 la on9. insya allah akan on9 hari2. tp nak jmpe dkt ym tu, mmg miracle larh. nak jmpe dkt fb? ahah. akan nmpk sy just on9 fb utk barn buddy + sorority life + farm ville + pet society. and, barn buddy je yg smpt slalu update. it's not slalu. but at least once a day. farm ville? mmg tanam pokok2 yg 3-4 days baru harvest. ahah... sorority life? main tekan2 je. pet society... waaaaaaaaaaaa. lola chayunkkk. i miss u!!!

lola ; owhhh. sem ni la plg jarang jmpe die. dlm, 3-4 days baru dpt jmpe kot. tu pun jrng la dpt main sampai abis. slalu dlm 15-30 min je. seeee... lola pon dah tak terjage. uhuuu~

te amo ; haha... 'te amo' korang, 'te amo!!!' =] hurm. camni citenye. last monday, di kolej almost half day jgk, dgn group members of VG2. buat props. props = setting. setting talkshow tuh. berkumpul lah kami d 4th floor, dlm class, with few laptops, gergaji, gunting + pisau, kain cream, spray, kotak2 dll. kami main potong2, spray2, n mcm2 lg lah. dan sy, tlg downloadkan lagu utk miraghee. makanya, die mintak download lagu rihanna - te amo.

baru 1st time dgr lagu ni. sadis kan. ahah. sy skeee lyric die. then nak download, sy tnye la mira, mcm mane spell 'te amo' tuh. dila pon x sure. semua x sure. ade ckp 'te amor'. 'la amor' last2 sy google jaaaaaaa. hahahahaha. dpt lah 'te amo' and then. mrka tnya ape mksd 'te amo'. sy google. mira tgk. then dpt taw 'te amo' = 'i love u' wahahha. sy n mira gelak2. then ckp dkt semua org, i mean, group members, 'te amo'. yg lain tataw mksd die pon, bantai ckp 'te amo' jgk. haha... makanya. te amo smua~! XD

btw. maaf sape2 yg ade trase dgn sy. seriously sy same mcm dlu. tak de lain dgn sape2. just mmg sy bz sgt. and ble sy bz sgt, smua sy tak smpt nak focus sgt. tp tuh, mmg bkn cara sy utk lupakan kwn, fmly dll. sy ingt, and ble sy larat + free skit, sy akan try contact jgk kejap2. hurmm... and, seriously, jgn trase, sbb semua pon sy layan mcm tuh. TERlayan camtuh sbb x sempat. sorry. if u think we're too far away. but seriously, i do care.

so, here's rihanna lyric - te amo.

Te amo, te amo, she say's to me. I hear the pain in her voice.
Then we danced underneath the candleabra, she takes the lead.
That's when i saw it in her eyes, it's over.

Then she said Te amo, then she put her hand around me waist.
I told her no she cried Te amo,
i told her i'm not gonna run away, but let me go.
My soul has arrived, without asking why.
I said Te amo, wish somebody would tell me what she said.
Don't it mean I love you. I think it means I love you.
Don't it mean I love you.

Te amo, te amo, she's scared to breathe.
I hold her hand, i got no choice, uhh.
Pulled me out on the beach, danced in the water, I start to leave.
She's begging me and asking why it's over.

Yes we can dance. But you gotta watch your hands.
Watch me all night. I move under the light because i understand.
That we all need love, and i'm not afraid. I feel the love but i don't feel that way.

Te amo, te amo, don't it mean i love you.

1st day of holiday

1st day of holiday! yes yes yes. finally. cettt... kuciwa jgk sebenarnye.
bebdk ipt lain semua da sem baru larh! org baru nak cuti plak...
skrng bebdk dr ovesea je ade bercuti jgk. tp majoriti jejauh meyh. uhuuu.
ape blh dkatekan ttg last paper audio, editing, mixing last wednesday?
ermmm... sshhhh amatttt sgtttt. serious. sampai terpk, camne kalo repeat?
n buat sesape yg leh score cara halal tu baguslah. good 4 u.
sape yg score care x halal tuh... pk2 la nnt. haih~ [berapiiii ...]

erm. semlm habis exam, lunch d mc d. mc value lunch weyh!!! jimat~ hee.
then, blk ptg, terusss main game sampai mlm. yer. sampai mlm.
tgk lola + kebun2 puas2 + sampai skt pinggang. ahah... erm. n semlm bnyk msg.
mlm da lain mcm je rase. leteyh semcm + bnyk bersin2... then.
da naik atas katil, but both maxis hp ditekan bergilir - gilir. reply msg.
i'm helping them. the girl, and the guy that i do really care.
act, those matter do affects me. think bout it almost all the time.
whatever it is b & a, think wisely, life goes on + plz b strong.
i do really care 4 both of u~! and hello~~~ i'm here. always~! =]

then 2day, i woke up erm...not so early-not so late. mandi2, siap2.
then bout 11am, gerak ambik salghee & again, we went to KLIA.
die nak blk tawau, sabah. so hantarkan... then. nak boarding n check in.
1st time weyh check in sendiri naik mas. kalo air asia biasela. cuz.
slalu dgn fmly je naik mas, so senanglah. then, td... cam terkial2 jgk la.
tp sume officer mas d counter, sume friendly2 lak. handsome2 lak tuh. hahaha
yer...salghee tegur sy blushing~ wahahah. obvious sgt gamaknye.
then settle down everything, masok sume kedai d airport. ahah... tahan je la.
tahan tgk chocssss + perfumessss + sumeee bnde pon cam best.
then bout 230pm, sampai umah. sleepy, amat. but x blh tdow. idk.

well... ramai jgk org da start tnye. nak buat ape cuti nih? erm.
cutiku x selame cuti kalian...dlm 3-4 weeks je. kot. soooo... nothing much.

1. dgr lagu the fray + pink sampai jd apam... wahaha. semlm da try transfer sume lagu the fray n pink latest album dlm hp, 1st time plak memory card hp tuh nak full.
   
2. nak habiskan sumeee english novel yg da beli berkepam tuh. haih~ remember buku six suspects yg khairi kasi bln march? plastic pon x bukak lg weyh!
   
3. jmpeee lola + farm ville + barn buddy + sorority life. tp seriously, kene kurangkan addiction tuh. sbb asal duk umah je, jd mls nak buat bnde lain. parah tuh~!
4. bln baik skrng nih... hurm. so. aqilah. cubeee la cuci hati + cuci diri + muhasabah diri benyk skittt. tahlah...kdg2 sedar buat salah, buat dose, but still... haih~
5. since those few weeks cam sgt bz, so bilik cam sgt dusty. kene pakai topeng & buang sumeee habuk!!! kalo tak pakai topeng, mule la bersin je cam goofy da~
6. and. tmbhkan ilmu... kekurangan pengetahuan am da rase. hua3...
7. nak hang out with those yg masih ade + free
8. nak blk srwk! nak nak nak!!!!!!! rnduuu gileeeeee... urghhh. nak jmpe 7 kittens tuh. x jmpe lg since die org d lahirkan. lgpon gg sakit... ={
9. erm. tgklah camne... buatlah ape yg patot. ahah~

btw. hari tuh kan awal bln bnyk gle shopping on9 kan? sampai duit da x de.
so, 3 weeks after kene la jimat habis2 sbb ade skit je tinggal. i've bout 150. for 3 weeks.
imagine... hari tuh. dlm sehari org habiskan more than 150 camtuh je.
tp, org da berjaye jgk survive dgn 150 dlm 3 minggu nih! hahahahaha...
bangga habis weyh dgn diri sdiri! XD

and erm... nak bgtaw. bad habit jgk nih. baru jgkla. dlu x camnih...
tp, da lame kot camnih. da almost a year kot...
sy bkn jenis 24 hours dgn hp da. esp bile dkt umah / luar umah.
cammm... kalau dkt umah mmg slalu sgt3 sy silent hp, n letak merate.
so, mmg slalu la kan call x diangkt / sms x di reply. minta maaf awal2...
dulu. yer duluuuuu... sy mmg jenis 24j dgn hp. tp x da. kalo ade pon...
dgr lagu. seriously. no sy x kenal? lg haram la sy nak angkt call kan.
MALAS! harap maklum... so kalo sape2 gune no baru ke, sile bgtaw. haha.
kalo x...mmg sampai ble pon x dilayan. tp kdg2 angkt jgk. sbb takot ade emergency.
sorry btw 4 this, erm, bad attitude should i say. sorry again.

esok? erm. full suda rasenye. kot~ ahah...sabtu mama ajak g jln tar.
cam best. lame x gi. harap2 dpt la kawal nafsu shopping. amin~~~

btw. no1 fav song from faith hill - there u'll be
[the famous song from pearl harbor]

When I think back On these times
And the dreams We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

[Chorus:]
In my dreams I'll always see you soar Above the sky
In my heart There will always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part Of you with me
And everywhere I am There you'll be
And everywhere I am There you'll be

Well you showed me How it feels
To feel the sky Within my reach
And I always Will remember all
The strength you Gave to me
Your love made me Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you My light, my strength
And I want to thank you Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always