penat boleh tahanlah

i enjoy ape i buat. i enjoy apa i pilih... tp i NAKKK buat bnyk benda lg. and kadang i penat jugak. nampak simple je life i, nampak senang je ape i kene buat, but then, be in my shoes. basically, my daily routine :

kerja - usually 4pm-12am

sometimes (very rare) 11am-8pm

al-maklumlah, BERNAMA kan BERITA.

b4 kerja atau malam around 9-10pm.

or maybe after work, aroun 12am-1am

b4 kerja atau offday. gi rumah org.

pergi post office. promote link blog lg.

http://rainbowshawls.blogspot.com/

tidur mmg terlentang camni.

selalunya aroun 2-3am baru tdow.

sometimes awal skit, 1am. or lambat skit 4-5am.

i miss family. love. friends. shopping. movies. hang out.

Triple Chocolate Dulce de Leche Brownies

I vaguely remember saying I wouldn't post any more recipes for brownies on this blog.  Well, people -  I lied.  This is one you definitely need to have in your repertoire.  As I mentioned in the last post, this recipe came from David Lebovitz's blog and it is DEFINITELY worth making.  Worth the calories, too.

Okay, so I did tweak the recipe though.  Just a little.  I used more dulce de leche than his recipe called for, mostly because I had it on hand after I made it from scratch and needed to get rid of it before I inhaled it.  I also added a little salt to the recipe and instead of adding toasted pecans or walnuts, I substituted chocolate chips. 

I also thought about doubling the recipe since it only calls for an 8-inch square pan.  Remember, I'm the queen of quantity - I ALWAYS make way too much of anything because heaven forbid you shouldn't have enough.  An eight-inch square pan of brownies seemed pretty skimpy to me.  What I didn't know, however, was how intensely rich and lethal these are.  Less is more when it comes to these.  Seriously.

So here is the recipe.  Be sure and read my comments at the end so you don't run into any pitfalls.  Learn from my mistakes!

TRIPLE CHOCOLATE DULCE DE LECHE BROWNIES  (adapted from David Lebovitz)

8 tablespoons unsalted butter
6 oz. bittersweet chocolate, chopped
1/4 cup Dutch process cocoa (I used Droste)
3 extra-large eggs
1 cup granulated sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup unbleached, all-purpose flour
1/4 teaspoon Kosher salt
8 oz. semi-sweet chocolate chips
1 1/2 cups dulce de leche

Preheat oven to 350-degrees.  Line an 8-inch square pan with heavy duty foil that covers the bottom and reaches up the sides.  Use one sheet of foil for one side, then another sheet of foil over that, making a large cross with edges that overhang the sides.  Grease well with butter or cooking spray (grease REALLY well).

Melt the butter in a medium saucepan.  Add the chocolate pieces and stir over low heat until chocolate is melted.  Remove from heat and whisk in the cocoa powder.  Add eggs, one at a time, then stir in the sugar and vanilla.  Mix well then add flour and salt.  Stir in the chocolate chips.

Spread half of the batter into the prepared pan.  Spoon half of the dulce de leche over and swirl it in with the tip of a knife.  Spread remaining batter over top and repeat with remaining dulce de leche.  Don't get too invested in making it look artful - by the time it bakes, it mostly just looks like all chocolate anyway.

Bake for 35-45 minutes or until center is just slightly firm.  Do not overbake.  Remove from the oven and cool completely then refrigerate until well-chilled.  Cut into squares as desired.

Yield:  12 - 18 brownies, depending upon how you cut them (the smaller, the better)

A couple of things: 

These are a bitch to get out of the pan.  The dulce de leche bubbles over as it bakes, creating something like glue between the foil and the pan.  I could not lift the brownies out of the pan using the foil handles because the foil stuck to the sides.  Hence, I put the pan in the freezer until it got good and solid then just cut them in the pan and lifted the brownies out one by one.

These are pretty sticky and ooey-gooey.  I find that it is best to store them in the refrigerator.  They will last for up to 5 days unless you eat them all in one sitting which I do not recommend.

galau queen in the air :s

Hello folks, good morning.
Hows your sleep? i hope you sleep well.
Anyway, i feel a little unwell.
Why? because something i cant tell fully.

Now, i just cant hold to write whatever in my head.
A little unnormally heart beating.
I have lots of question now.
Its like make me curious but make me hurt too.
Have you feel like this?
I hope you never feel it.

Sometimes i hate my self, why so serious?
Yeah, "WHY SO SERIOUS?"
i never think so complicated like now.
Specially about feelings.

I dont know, with who i should share, with who i should ask, with who i should cry.
I know it hurt my self, i know it hurt someone too.
But, i cant deny this feeling.
When you curious and jealous in the same time.
Why oh why?
I never do this before.

Its not about 'who', but its about 'what'. *should i tell you, i dont like her!!*
What they did before im here?
Do they did the same things like i do?
How first they meet?
How first they laugh?
How i can feel this?

too much question, my fingers like in the jail when i wanna typing this.
Like, a big line dancing, NEED YOU ASK THAT?? yeah need i?
I should didnt do this, buuut, i cant hold this.

Why oh why?
I make my self like a loser.
yeah, i make my self like a sand hugged by wind and dumped to somewhere i dont know.
Its silly!

Im so sorry *i dont want you to say, dont being sorry or etc*
Its like a devil tickle my tummy unttil i give up and do this.
Damn, i hate my self!
How can i dying in this unwell?

Its like i have a bad dreams maker, nightmare, and good dream worker.
Who can control my self? i dont know.

i know, i deserve to be hated.
Why? because i made it.
But, i swear it, i never want do it.

Like a words isnt enought for me, but the reality is something bad dancing in my head.
I give my heart, i trust you so much, and i love you more than you know.
im the stupid queen in my messy kingdom.
Maybe red queen in alice in wonderland will envy, hahaha.

I cant stop remember all the things happened to me, you makes me smile unstopped, you make me cry but i thank God i know why, you makes me miss you in every single day of y life. *like Adam sandler's song playing in my head - Grow old with you*
then i cant stop minding the right words to make you happy. Because i love to see your smile. I love to see your laugh. I love to see your eyes. i love to see your hair. I love to see your cheeks. I love you too much, too deep.

I wish i have a wings, i can fly, i will fly and never come back.
I will dancing with the clouds before the rain remove them.
i hope God always hear my pray in everynight before i sleep, i wanna this wonderful story be a greatest story for me.
I wanna be with you forever last.
*playing inches of you by www.myspace.com/fingyourday*
*continue with mandy moore- i wanna be with you*
---pssst, why i write lots of song tittle here? haha---

The hardest think i feel is, lose you. Because im sick and im well because of you.
Every i laugh and talk with you, like the star killing the emptyness.
And everytime i feel you so far, i feel sick, like my life have no colors.
is it you named love, God?

then, if i have a time machine -like doraemon had- what should i do?
need i change to a bad girl? haha.
whooaaa.

singing 'Think of Love' by Risin Black Hole
sometimes i wanna give you all the time that i have
Cause when you smile it seems all problems vanished to the sky.
oh i was thinking, why i need you more? why i need you more?

Sometimes i wanna give you all the love that i have
cause when you die my world come tumbling down in front of me.
Oh i was thinking why i need you more each daaaay?

When i think of love...
I just think of you
i said i want you want you to be my wife*harusnya husband nih*

finally, i feel better. i dont know why.
I dont think what will happen after this, i just want to share it.
i think i should make a good poems and ask to mr. Agus to make a song from that. hahaha.

sorry isnt mean a lot, but sorry is a hard word to say.
please accept my apologize.
jaz te ljubim toliko *find it in translator ROFL*
xxxx

LOVE STORY

Love is the best creature in the world.

Love is not about what you get, but what you give.

Love is a simple word but means a lot.

Love is the way to say who i am.

Love is my favorite breath.

Love is uncountable.

Love is the truth of the fake.

LOVE is you.

Just enjoy and spread the love.

Get the happiness in every single part of love.

Bikin Gumi yuk

7 Mei 2010, jumat

Ketemu cemilan anak2, gumi, semacam gum. Biasa deh giliran Mei yang nyoba bkin sendiri. Gw cuman ajarin gimana caranya, siapin bahannya aja. Caranya gampang banget, cuman larutkan seratin di air panas, campur bubuk gum nya, trus microwave 20 detik, nyetak, taroh di kulkas 1/2 jam...jadi deh...
Mei doyan banget, sayang 1 x bikin cuman jadi 12 biji mungil2 gumi, jadi dia bilang mo bkin lagi besoknya. Xiang ga begitu suka, coz mungkin terlalu kenyal kale ya..