time, i need u more than u know.

hye. so here i am, at this boring starbucks again. well hey, i need some time alone 4 this very moment. well ppl. i'm tired. physically and mentally. i' m soooo bz, well, not really. but i'm. i wish that i have more than 24 hours a day. and, *sight* a lot of unpredictable, accidentally happened and some time i was thinking of giving it up. being totally selfish, and ignore others and just show not respect towards eldest. not at all.

fyi, i only slept for 3-4 hours per day for this 3-4 weeks. why? well hey. i could say, it's because of my exam, fmly, friends, etc. but hey, i've spent a lot of great time as well. yes i did. u know what's the main reason of me, being here? to get a good internet access to keep me blogging. ahah. yeah, i miss this mr bloggie. y mr? idk. i just love to call it mr bloggie. lalalalala~ owh perhaps, maybe, i was assuming mr bloggie as my bf. which is not, obviously.

btw. a lot of things happened. and, mostly were unplanned. hurmmm... ok. let see. let's start with 17th dec 2009, thursday. i've got a phone called from my collegemates, salmiza

her ; weyh. ko nak gi tak? hari ni?

me ; hari ni ke? kan baru rabu.

her ; khamis dah lah!

me ; ha. wait a minute! jap jap jap!!!! (jerit x ingt dunia)

(and i was looking at the calendar, pointing my fingers at... OMG. it's 17th, thursday)

me ; errr... sal. sorry. x kot. cousin aku 2 org ade. huu.

and yet. for the 1st time, i ever cooked chinese fried rice. hahahaha. well i know it's the simplest thing to cook, but, i've never try that. lauk biase, and nasi ke ape, blh. but nasi goreng? haha. i've never did that. wawawawa... and, so, i tried my best, using all the stuff we had in the kitchen, and yeay! i did it well!!! habis 1 kuali besar itu. mestilah bangga. =D

and so, i'll story bout last friday - sunday, later. i wanna tell bout yesterday. yes, 21st of december 2009. another day that shows, family does matter. ahah...

21st december 2009

i slept at 2am and woke up at almost 6am. did my last-minute-relaxing-study for both directing and broadcast journalism BJ paper. done with it around 730am, took my bath, and went straight 2 d college. so, had my BJ paper from 900am - 1130am. damn! the paper was not easy for me. well, others might think of the opposite of it. daa~ it's over.

1130am - 1pm = final project meeting with pn. zura. it's a next sem subj ppl. grrr~ and we've got a lot of things 2 b done b4 18th of jan 2010 - beginning of new sem.

1pm - 230pm = went straight to surau. solat. study. exam hall.

250pm - 550pm = directing paper. though, also. i left the exam hall around 5pm. took a ride with widae + salghee. thanks guys. really miss both u. my old-housemates. it's been a while since we last hang out 2gether.

500pm - 830pm = home sweet home. ate my so-so-late lunch, did my laundry, take a look at both merc and kembara, took my bath, solat etc.

830pm - 900pm = i was going to melawati with kak sally, to fetch asma + aisyah at su's house. and suddenly, auntie called, and asked us to take her to the GH general hospital a.k.a hosp besar kuala lumpur. lucky that she stays at kemensah. and lucky that, we're almost there.

900pm - almost 11pm = idk where the H is GH. i know those road, but i didn't know it was there! grrr... so i called so-call-best friend, afiq. and asked him the way 2 go there. kak sally was panic. so, she asked afiq to drive. owh yar, auntie sesak nafas. it was, all of sudden. and thats y we need 2 go to GH.

i was thinking of going to the nearer hosp - ampang pu3, pusrawi, etc. but auntie still wanted to go to GH. and FYI - i didn't bring both of my maxis hp. i only bring my celcom - which is my fmly hp. and, FYI, i only wore a pinky shirt of hello kitty + my flowerish pant. god! and a shawl, with no brooch or pin. grrr~ well, i thought we were only heading to su's house.

and then, kak sally sat at d back with auntie. while afiq drove kak sally's car. we're there and straight to emergency department. kak sally was with auntie, while me and afiq, we're searching over the whole hosp 4 a parking '-___- and then, we waited at the parking lot, under the tree, and he smoke, and we talked bout lots of thing.

11pm - 1130pm = for now, auntie was admitted there. and, still she is, and so, we went straight to melawati. sent afiq home. and went to su's house. fetched asma + aisyah + cik. straight to home. tired. yes i am.

12am = home sweet home. clean up the house 4 a while.

1am - 3am = was about to sleep. and, yeah, i was half-dead.

3am - 5am = kak sally woke me up. cik was awake too. and i was like? "what's now?" and she said, "hosp. Dr call" well. we were freaking nervous and arrived at the hosp to hear the dr said "dia meracau. dia ckp nak jmpa fmly" T__T i was very bery da tired ok. and stayed there 4 a while. until 5am, left cik there.

5am - 620am = arrived home around 530am. and slept at 620am just now. and, again, woke up at 830am. teh & fmly are here, they took aisyah and went straight to the hosp.

so... another day begin - today. 22nd of december 2009 T__T

see. i've told ya. i only sleep bout 4 hours, total. and so, as for today... 22nd of december 2009

cleaned up all the mess at home, with kak ngah's children at the house. ate my lunch around 12pm. and then, teh & others were home, and hungry. so, there i go, to the food court, and buy lots of foods and went home. solat, and here i am. starbucks. for some peace of mind. and to express everything, here. mr bloggie. u just dont know how much imy.

since i'm so bz. and so tired of every mess in life. i hope, there's some of u out there, will try 2 understand my situation. i' m sorry that i dont have enough time for every1. and that i cant always be that sweet-n-nice-neversayno girl. well, enough with that, i'm a human with a feeling too. stop thinking of being 24hours pampered by me. ok. cuz i can't always do that. tq

phew~ what a day. aite? so much more to catch up. that's all for now, so far.

btw.

afiq - tqvm for always being there. well, u know 100% bout muh fmly aite. tq again!

hawa - bby. be good. be cool. imy. ily. 4get bout those with the stupid behavior.

babe - be strong. like really strong. Allah, with us all the way.