future... what would it be?

haih~ i just got a news... well. bout something that... erm.
i-just-hate-2-hear-da-most. bad news. i mean a very bery bad news.
disaster. mess. nightmare. BOOOMMMM... okay. fine. hurm...*stay calm*
bout a very BIG rumors, that finally turned to ---> reality!
yeah. i just have to wait and see what's next? ={

nothing much to be exposed right now. i just can't.
just, it's about my FUTURE. i mean. my life. yeah..
bout my destiny. and who am i going to be in the next few years.
and IF its really3 going to happen. i mean.. .. ..
how can i just restart everything with ZERO?
how can i, start my new life & rewind & re-do everything?
again??? urghhh~~~ unimaginable.

was it my fault 4 not taking an opportunity to be a lawyer?
or was it my fault, too, 4 ignoring those offer to be an engineer..?
ishhh...kalau x minat buat ape nak ambik? hurm. ={
then i talked to a friend of mine.

i've told him a part of the messy mess...

aqilla_aa89: shahli..taw x...qila tgh riso gle nih..
aqilla_aa89: hurmmm..x btaw sape2 pon lg..
him: ap die?

***and i've told him everything***

aqilla_aa89: ya allah...kalo kene restart blk kan...
aqilla_aa89: gile leteyh..nak kene ***** tmpt lain..
him: leh nye..
aqilla_aa89: dugaan-Nya~~~
him: insyaallah..
him: believe in urself..
aqilla_aa89: hurmmm...
aqilla_aa89: nak nangis je rase..
him: xbek pkr cm2..
him: rezeki allah ad mcm2..
him: sabo2..
him: ad nye jln kuar..
him: jgn pts asa..
him: ok..
him: aqilah..
him: shahli ad hal sat..
aqilla_aa89: erm...baiklah shahli..
him: nnti smbng blk..
him: in da mean tym..
him: byk2 bersabo n solat..
him: insyalaah
him: allah akn tnjukkn jln..
him: ok..
aqilla_aa89: okay...hope so..