Sunday, December 6, 2009

aku dah mula berdiri


tiada siapa yang boleh pedulikan diri aku sendiri, lebih dari aku sendiri.
maka aku sudah mula berdiri. alhamdulilah. berdiri perlahan - lahan.
aku sedar terlalu singkat masa yg ada. lagi beberapa hari tamatnya 2009.
tamatkan dengan sia - sia? tidak! aku mesti tamatkan dgn 1 pencapaian.
baru aku boleh tersenyum puas dgn diri sendiri. (syok sendiri itu penting kdg2...)

aku sudah mula buat kerja sekolah. haha. 1 permulaan baik. bagus3! thee.
ada org sedang bersenang lenang, tersenyum dgn jalan hidupnya. dipermudahkan Allah.
aku tumpang gembira. tanda Allah menyayanginya. aku bertanya. apakah aku,
dilupakan? apakah aku sudah tidak disayangi Allah? sekilas aku menggelengkan kepala.
Allah syg aku dgn cara lain, aku diuji pula kali ini. demam pula. tandanya...
Allah mengurangkan dosa aku. terima kasih tuhan! sbb buat aku sedar.
aku masih tidak Kau lupakan. i am blessed to see and feel that =]

aku bgn subuh, aku terus mkn roti. bukan lapar. tp alas perut utk menelan ubat.
panadol atau ubat tidur bukan pilihan terbaik buat masa ni. sbb nnt aku muntah.
aku dah agak 'allergy' dgn ubat - ubat tu. ada sejarah hitamnya. maka.
ku telan saja ubat selsema yg ada. demam, sakit tekak, selsema, sudah kurasakan.
sekarang, masih lg sakit tekak, mataku berair tanda panas, selsema sedikit.
badan? panas sedikit mungkin. akanku tnggu hari esok, makin pulih atau tidak.
kalau tidak, DR. Mariam tercinta akan tgk muka aku lagi.

sepanjang kesihatan aku kurang memuaskan ini, tidak sekali pun. sekali pun tidak.
tidak aku maklumkan pada mama dan abah. aku risau mereka bimbang.
lantas perkara yg sama aku pesan pd kak sally dan akma. jgn bgtahu mereka.
tp aku tahu, doa mama dan abah masih selamat sampai pdku. ku rasakannya.
Tuhan. aku sedar kau menarik seorg - demi seorg insan yg menyangiku.
sahabat... itu yg aku maksudkan. lebih dari itu? aku tak pasti. tapi. aku sedar jg.
sebenarnya, Kau sedarkan aku, hambaMu ini bahawa Engkau masih ada.
Engkau Maha Melihat, Mendengar, Merasakan apa yg aku lalui. =]]

Kelas di UIA. alhamdulilah so far so good. tp kan. aku tak nak ckp lebih2.
takut nnt ada di antara mereka TERbace blog aku ni. mati aku syok sendiri. haha.
yg menarik sgt buat aku, 1 kelas aku ada dlm berbelas org, pelbagai latar belakang.
student, termasuk aku dlm 3 org. ada 2 org fresh graduate, dan yg lain bekerja.
dan plg aku rase cam nak buat muka -___-'' adalah sbb mereka majority mmg terorr english!!!
just they would love to improve more, and hilangkan nervous utk communicate. oh hebattt!
4 lelaki dan selebihnya wanita. oh yeah! disebabkan kepelbagaian ni, aku rasa seronok.
ada cikgu BM, nurse di IJN, businessman, student statistic UM, graduate dr Jordan, dll.
kita tgk mcm mana kelas seterusnya nnt. harapnya lebih baik. insya Allah.

itu saja. terima kasih buat semua yg membaca, dan berdoa dr jauh.
terima kasih yg membaca dan memberikan semangat. nora, hawa, ruzanna, mai, ttm.
nabil, bha, afiq, dll yg secara tak langsung masih tanya khabar. ramai lg. tqvm.
terima kasih yg masih bimbang. dan ambil berat. tak lupakan aku. and the truth is.
u know i miss u too... and i miss myself too. god blessed us insya Allah. amin! =]



Tim Cahill


Love me or hate me. Its one or the other. Always has been. Either way you will know who I am. Look deeper, do you see what I see? The angles, the inches, the split-second. You think I am not a danger? Think again. See the game one move ahead, that's what you saw in me...

"Love me or hate me. Its one or the other. Always has been. But never underestimate me."

Tim Cahill with Lucas Neill

Timothy Joel Cahill or simply Tim was born in Sydney on December 6, 1979. He was raised by his Samoan mother and an English father, of Irish decent. He is a professional football player who plays as an attacking midfielder for Everton in the Premier League and Australian National Team. Since he was a young boy he was already playing football in Australia until 1997 came, he asked his parents that he wants to go to England. All he wanted is to be a professional football player so he started his career at Millwall. He then polled over 100,000 votes to win the FA Cup "Player of the Round" award for his performance during the semi-final victory in that competition.

In 2004, He joined the Everton. In the season 2004-2005, He finished it being the top goal scorer and Fans' player of the season. And that time Everton reached the Champions League qualifying stage ahead of cross-town rivals Liverpool. Cahill's international career blossomed as expected. He played for Samoa at age 14, participated in 2004 Olympics and made an amazing performance during 2006 game where in the socceroos defeated Uruguay and qualified for the FIFA world cup. Last June 17, 2009 Cahill made another outstanding performance by setting 2 goals and the Australian socceroos defeated Japan with the score 3-1.

I admire Tim Cahill just lately. I've know him for more than 2 years. I saw his remnants of fame in Sydney Telstra Stadium and Melbourne Cricket ground back in 2007. I didn't appreciate him at first. But after watching the Australian socceroos won the game last June 17, 2009--Tim Cahill is the MAN for me. That very moment my love for football was resurrected. He's the reason I am grabbing football lately. He's also the reason why I do football drills at my veranda whenever I can and he's also the reason why I courageously joined the Saigon Raiders when they play during their practice.

I first knew about the sport football when I was in first grade. I played it in school but it's not the same football that I see on TV now. It's a street-type football in Manila. But during college, I once again revived playing football by applying the soccer try-out for women. I was taking Fine Arts then so the schedule was very difficult. I had 3 try-outs. All those 3, I got dizzy. So I decided to give up and accepted that football is not for me. No matter how I dream to be part of those lesbos in maroon uniform playing for Fine Arts, I have to quit. I lack stamina and energy. I don't have the energy like those lesbos. Haha. But seriously speaking, Tim Cahill really inspired me to kick the ball again. I am trying now. I hope it's not too late. It just amazes me every time I see him doing the classic Cahill moves-- his ultimate goal! After the first classic Cahill move, the next one will follow and that is doing the boxing when he is in the state of euphoria.


If people would ask me who's your next idol after Jamie, probably that's Tim Cahill in my heart. Just like my idol Jamie who is involve in so many charity and helping people to cook, Cahill is heavily involved with the UNICEF children's charity. Cahill is sooo amazing as a man! If heaven will throw someone like him on my lap, geez I will really grab him. I never liked tattoos on man's arm but the one that Tim has, is so meaningful and artistic. I know a little history about Samoa but definitely I can get the insight on what was tattoed on his arm. Not just like other men who are posers of tattoos just for display and to prove their masculinity.

Today I pay tribute to the greatest football player I have known and admire...

Happy Birthday Tim Cahill!!!

Sorry, I am not a David Beckham fan :p

hugs,
joanie xxx

Saturday, December 5, 2009

It sure SMELLS like Christmas...

...and it isn't pine or mistletoe! But rather.......COOKIES!!!

Today I made SEVEN varieties of sweets -- some healthy, some not so healthy, but all are delicious! 214 cookies + 16 brownies later I am pooped and my house smells like the December issue of Taste of Homes looks.

Try to keep up for some holiday treat delights...

Hint of Mint Munchies
compliments of Cassie at A Pinch of This and A Dash of That


Makes 3 dozen 2-inch cookies

Ingredients:
1 bag Betty Crocker Chocolate Chip Walnut Cookie Mix

3/4 C Andes Creme de Menthe chips

Directions:

1)Preheat oven to 375 F
2)Mix together cookie mix and ingredients listed on package. Once well mixed, add in the 3/4 cup of creme de menthe.
3)Drop cookie dough by rounded Tbsp onto a ungreased cookie sheet or a cookie sheet covered in tinfoil/parchment paper.
4)Bake each batch for 9 to 11 minutes, or until edges are lightly browned.




Peppermint Oatmeal Crunchies
compliments of Cassie at A Pinch of This and A Dash of That


Makes 3 dozen 2-inch cookies


Ingredients:
1 bag Betty Crocker oatmeal cookie mix+ingredients listed on mix
3/4 cup Andes Peppermint Crunch chips


Directions:
1)Preheat oven to 375 F
2)Mix together cookie mix and ingredients listed on package. Once well mixed, add in the 3/4 cup of peppermint chips.
3)Drop cookie dough by rounded Tbsp onto a ungreased cookie sheet or a cookie sheet covered in tinfoil/parchment paper.
4)Bake each batch for 9 to 11 minutes, or until edges are lightly browned.




Christmas Chocolate Cheers 
compliments of Cassie at A Pinch of This and A Dash of That
 Note: I could NOT (for the life of me) find Holiday Kissables, so I settled for Holiday M&M's. Also, I used Betty Crocker Peanut Butter Cookie Mix instead of the chocolate mix the recipe called for*.



Ingredients:
1 bag Betty Crocker Peanut Butter cookie mix*
1/3 c. (canola) oil
2 eggs
1 tub of chocolate frosting
1 bag of Hershey's Christmas Kissables

Directions:
1)Heat oven to 375°F. In large bowl, combine cake mix, oil and eggs; stir with spoon until thoroughly moistened. Shape dough into 1-inch balls; place 2 inches apart on ungreased cookie sheets.
2) Bake at 375°F. for 6 to 8 minutes or until edges are light golden brown. Cool 1 minute, then press your thumb into the center of each cookie. After that remove from cookie sheets.
3)Spoon some frosting into a pastry bag or a zip loc and snip the end. Pipe frosting into the indent of the cookie and top with 3 Kissables!!


A trick with the Christmas Chocolate Cheers is to use a Ziplock as a frosting gun...


Oatmeal, Chocolate Chip, and Pecan Cookies 



Yield: 3 dozen (serving size: 1 cookie) 

Ingredients:

1 1/4  cups  all-purpose flour (about 5 1/2 ounces) 
1  cup  regular oats 
3/4  teaspoon  baking powder 
1/2  teaspoon  baking soda 
1/2  teaspoon  salt 
3/4  cup  granulated sugar 
1/2  cup  packed brown sugar 
1/3  cup  butter, softened 
1 1/2  teaspoons  vanilla extract 
1  large egg 
1/4  cup  chopped pecans, toasted 
1/4  cup  semisweet chocolate minichips


Preheat oven to 350°.
Lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups; level with a knife. Combine flour and next 4 ingredients (through salt), stirring with a whisk; set aside.
Place sugars and butter in a large bowl; beat with a mixer at medium speed until well blended. Add vanilla and egg; beat until blended. Gradually add flour mixture, beating at low speed just until combined. Stir in pecans and minichips. Drop dough by tablespoonfuls 2 inches apart onto baking sheets lined with parchment paper. Bake at 350° for 12 minutes or until edges of cookies are lightly browned. Cool on pans 2 minutes. Remove cookies from pans; cool on wire racks.


Calories: 81 (33% from fat); Fat: 3g (sat 1.4g,mono 1g,poly 0.3g) ; Protein: 1.1g; Carbohydrate: 12.9g; Fiber: 0.5g; Cholesterol: 10mg; Sodium: 76mg; Calcium: 12mg


Source: Julianna Grimes and Ann Taylor Pittman, Cooking Light, DECEMBER 2007


Peppermint Cheesecake Brownies
I colored the cheesecake batter with red food coloring -- about 3 drops for a festive flare!



Yield: 16 servings (serving size: 1 bar)



Cheesecake batter:
1  (8-ounce) block 1/3-less-fat cream cheese
1/3  cup  granulated sugar
1/4  teaspoon  peppermint extract
1  large egg
1  large egg white
1  tablespoon  all-purpose flour

Brownie batter:
4.5  ounces  all-purpose flour (about 1 cup)
1/2  cup  unsweetened cocoa
1/2  teaspoon  salt
1 1/2  cups  packed brown sugar
1/4  cup  canola oil
1/4  cup  buttermilk
2  teaspoons  vanilla extract
2  large egg whites
1  large egg 
Cooking spray


1. Preheat oven to 350°.


2. To prepare cheesecake batter, place cheese in a medium bowl; beat with a mixer at medium speed until smooth. Add granulated sugar and peppermint extract; beat well. Add 1 egg and 1 egg white; beat well. Add 1 tablespoon flour; beat mixture just until blended.



3. To prepare brownie batter, weigh or lightly spoon 4.5 ounces (about 1 cup) flour into a dry measuring cup; level with a knife. Combine 4.5 ounces flour, cocoa, and salt in a medium bowl, stirring with a whisk. Combine brown sugar, oil, buttermilk, vanilla, 2 egg whites, and 1 egg in a large bowl; beat with a mixer at medium-high speed until well blended. Add flour mixture to brown sugar mixture; beat at low speed just until blended.



4. Reserve 1/2 cup of brownie batter. Pour remaining batter into a 9-inch square baking pan coated with cooking spray. Carefully pour cheesecake batter over top; spread evenly to edges. Dot cheesecake batter with reserved brownie batter. Swirl top two layers of batters together using the tip of a knife. Bake at 350° for 26 minutes or until top is set. Cool completely in pan on a wire rack.

Calories: 213 (32% from fat); Fat: 7.5g (sat 2.6g,mono 2.3g,poly 1.1g); Protein: 4.4g; Carbohydrate: 32.3; gFiber: 0.7g; Cholesterol: 37mg; Sodium: 169mg; Calcium: 32mg

Source: Kathy Farrell-Kingsley, Cooking Light, DECEMBER 2008



Oatmeal Cranberry White Chocolate Chip Cookies

2/3 c butter, softened
2/3 c firmly packed brown sugar
2 large eggs
1 ½ c old fashioned oats
1 ½ c all purpose flour
1 tsp baking soda
½ tsp salt
1 (6 oz) package dried cranberries
2/3 c white chocolate chips

Preheat oven to 375 degrees. Using an electric mixer, beat butter and sugar together in a mixing bowl until light and fluffy. Add eggs, mixing well. Combine oats, flour, baking soda, and salt in a separate mixing bowl.

Add to butter mixture in several additions, mixing well after each addition. Stir in dried cranberries and white chocolate chips. Drop by rounded teaspoonfuls onto ungreased cookie sheet. Bake for 10 – 12 minutes or until golden brown. Cool on wire rack. Makes about 2 ½ dozen cookies.


Source: Weight Watchers (online forum) 


Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookies

Yield: 3 dozen (serving size: 1 cookie)

1  cup  granulated sugar
1  cup  packed brown sugar
1/2  cup  creamy peanut butter
1/4  cup  water
1/4  cup  canola oil
2  teaspoons  vanilla extract
2  large egg whites
1  large egg
12  ounces  all-purpose flour (about 2 2/3 cups)
1  teaspoon  baking powder
1  teaspoon  baking soda
1/2  teaspoon  salt
2/3  cup  semisweet chocolate minichips

1. Preheat oven to 350°.


2. Combine first 8 ingredients in a large bowl; beat with a mixer at medium speed until smooth.

3. Weigh or lightly spoon flour into dry measuring cups; level with a knife. Combine flour, baking powder, baking soda, and salt in a small bowl; stir with a whisk. Add flour mixture to peanut butter mixture, stirring just until combined. Stir in minichips. Drop dough by tablespoonfuls 2 inches apart on 2 baking sheets. Bake at 350° for 12 minutes or until golden. Cool on a wire rack.


Calories: 128 (32% from fat); Fat: 4.5g (sat 1.1g,mono 2.2g,poly 1g); Protein: 2.3g; Carbohydrate: 20.5g; Fiber: 0.6g; Cholesterol: 6mg; Sodium: 106mg; Calcium: 16mg

Source: Kathy Farrell-Kingsley, Cooking Light, DECEMBER 2008

And only 3 hours later...my friends are the lucky recipients of THESE:

Tins filled with...


cookies! Obvi..


I taste tested all of the cookies (and brownies) and they are ALL really good! 
If I had to choose a favorite it would have to be the Oatmeal Cranberry White Chocolate Chip Cookies.






I must fess up -- my morning started off on a bad note...forgetting to eat breakfast before I set out for a day of power shopping. Around 10 I gave in to a bad, bad guilty pleasure: McDonald's Sausage Egg McMuffin. 450 calories and 85% of my daily value of saturated fat later...I completed my shopping spree successfully. In my defense, I get fast food a handful of time in a calendar year, and typically it is because of instances like this morning.

Question: How often do you eat fast food? What is your "favorite" fast food restaurant (if you had to choose one)?

Husby and I are off to my work Christmas party! Hope everyone's having a wonderful weekend!

Tomorrow...the LD on this KOMBACHA everyone in blogland is yappin' about!!

Places I have been...


visited 35 states (70%)
Create your own visited map of The United States

I thought this was a cool way to see where I have been in the US. Still a lot of places that need visited!

About this DECEMBER, huh?

Anyway, aku baru saja menyelesaikan ujian akhir semester ganjil. Pow! Lega, meskipun enggak yakin dengan nilai. Hmm, ya ini berkat tingkat stress gue yang udah menyentuh batas maksimal tepat saat sehari menjelang ujian. Jadi ya apa adanya.

Ini bulan Desember. Ada beberapa kejadian diawal Desember yang membuat gue menyebut ini Desember kelabu. Tapi disaat yang bersamaan gue dituntut menjadikan Desember ini menjadi Wonderful December. Sulit!

Pertama, saya harus kehilangan kucing bodoh nan gemuk yang bandel di penhujung Nopember. Mike. Dia meninggal karena sakit. Shitty! Diaaaa, bikin gue sedih. Dan parahnya, Mike pergi tepat dihari ulang tahun nenek gue. Damn it!

Dan saat di awal desember, tepatnya hmm 2 Desember (kalo ga salah) --gue pengingat yang buruk, maaf-- Rampula, si kecil yang lucu dan manja itu juga meninggal karena sakit yang sama dengan mike. Chiro ketularan, tapi untungnya sempet di bawa ke rumah sakit. Gue nangiiiis. Gue sedih banget.
Gue kehilangan temen-temen main gue. Parah!

So far, chiro udah membaik. Tapi dirumah gue jadi sepi. Deyn udah di pelihara deri. Dan katanya si Deyn manja banget. Uh, dasar. haha. Sedangkan Twin yang di kasih ke bibit, hilang. :( ENggak bisa ngerawat banget sih tuh orang!

Okay, jumat yang menyenangkan baru saja gue lewati. Gue ke pim akhirnya setelah sebulan enggak ketemu sky walk. haha. Gue sangat mencintai PIM. Gue keliling liat-liat dress, foto2, dan heavenly blushing. Enggak lupa, nonton New Moon. Ahhh cowok-cowok itu, bikin meleleh. hahaha.

Sabtu, hari ini, pagi-pagi gue udah hinggap dikandang 65, lalu berangkat ke greenfest2009. Katanya Pak Soleh bakal dateng, katanya ada perpisahan guru ppl, katanya di absen. Ternyata... enggak satupun yang terbukti. Hanya saja, di greenfest gue ketemu anak-anak ips SMA Negeri 65. haha.

By the way, hari ini duo Endah n Rhesa melangsungkan pernikahan. ENtah kenapa, gue senaaaaaaang sekali. Mereka hebat! Semoga pernikahan mereka langgeng dan terus berkarya. AMIN.

Ada yang gue nanti-nanti saat ini, yaitu hari selasa. Tanggal 8 Desember 2009. Kenapa? Karena tepat hari itu, akan dilangsungkan grand final Think-Act-Change The Body Shop Doucmentary Film Competition. Inget dong ya kenapa? Filmku masuk 10 besar. wuihiiiii. Senangnya!

Dan pada hari selasa nanti, aku akan melihat diriku sendiri dalam layar besar itu. Ahh, aku maluuuu! Tapi semoga ini berdampak baik dan menghasilkan. AMIIIN AMIN AMIN AMIN. (Doakan aku ya, doa kalian kubutuhkan.) Dan pasti untuk acara seperti ini aku berharap bisa tampil semenarik mungkin. Biar enggak kebanting sama yang lainnya. Hmmm, sayangnya, pms nih, jerawaaaat keluar semua. Sigh!! Semoga tidak memburuk. huh.

Aaaah, satu kabar buruk, di sekolah gue, karena UN di majukan menjadi bulan Maret 2010, maka setelah UAS laknat yang baru saja selesai kemaren. Persis! Mulai senin, lusa, akan tetap belajar efektif. Dalam kata lugas, enggak ada kata classmeet, or istirahat. JAHAT!!! Tapi ini demi masa depan -___- suram!

Oh iya, aku mau mencoba menyusun dan menulis cerpen baru. DOAkan lagi ya, aku mau menyertakannya dalam lomba. Hehe. Aku banci eksis sekali ya? hihi. Bye fellas, i wanna start my shortstory. Love you!