too little, too wrong

i'm feelin' sorry, to myself. for being such a loser in the middle of the night. dear heart, u're done with it. enough crying for that stupid silly reason that no one knows - except this one gf. and, to this one person - the one i'd never give up on, i guess i've to really3 let u go. so i wouldn't cry a tear for u anymore. not even a single tear.

boy. u're wrong. i'm not that bitchy bitch.

i'm not that cheap chick, the one u can find across the street.

i gave & give u the very best of me, but, u gave me nothing.

u flirt around with a lot of girls, when u know, i flirt with no one.

u said u love me, but u said 'i love u' to them too.

well. one conclusion - guys. they're a good friend. and a bad sweetheart.

i wonder. all the sweet things u did. all the tears, when i left u b4.

i just don't know, which are true and which are, fake. cuz u're just so fake.

when i asked u bout this, u said i don't believe u. how can i?

go find someone else. in letting u go, i'm loving myself.

because to u, it just a game. i'm starting to move on. u know all d right things to say.

i can love with all my heart. i know i've so much to give. but.

it just too little too late.

boy, i know i'm ur sweet lil girl. i know that i was a good girl to u.

but, enough with that. u didn't appreciate it. u took a chance.

made up a plan. take advantage of me.

so stop blaming me when i just dont trust boys. i mean.

when it comes to more than a friend. i just, don't. but i know.

and i have a bunch of. good bf - good boy friend ok.

they spice up my life with their craziness + high sense of humor.

aiman - don't worry. i'm good. i'm not sad. not anymore.

finaz - i've been keeping a lot of things. that i'll tell u 1 fine day. so that u know, what happened these few years. can't wait 2 c u again.

nabil - get well soon! take care.

kacak - sy ok. no worries. best of luck ya!

and to u, miss listener, tqvm =]

i'm good. we're all good. =D