a year ago, silent.

11:59pm

it's a minute left before 12am, 18th june 2009.

and i'm writing this.

a year ago. 17th june 2008.

there was a girl, standing alone at mid valley. waiting for her sunshine.

perhaps, for the last time. it's time for her, to walkaway.

there, she met him to say goodbye. the sweetest goodbye.

she sat on a chair in front of a few shops at the highest floor.

and there he goes... he came, he walked and smiled slightly.

he knows, it's the end. but, the end is the beginning of the new part.

they sat beside each other. silent... and she talked properly.

asking bout the girl she's curious about. and carefully, the boy gave his answered.

again, both silent.

she didn't know how to talk anymore. how to tell. how to say.

it's the hardest part. yes it was. to let the person her loves the most go.

she wrote a long SMS, and sent it to him. he. still besides her,

holding his HP & read all the SMS(s). he looked down. and said...

"i let u go, if that's ur decision. i don't want u to change ur mind because of me."

silent. she looked into his eyes, and smiled. tried to contol her tears.

and she still remember, seeing he's hiding his red eyes. perhaps, it's hard 4 him too.

she's wondering... "does he, ever, loved me with all his heart, once?"

the love relationship ends there, but that's only the beginning. of everything.

then they walked together, act like there's nothing happened. back to what they were b4.

friends. that's what they used to be. and that's what they are now.

they shopped together, and had their last lunch together. laughed as they usually did.

and, say goodbye for the last time for 2008. it's hard, but it's ok.

she's mentally prepared for that. the boy? he's just fine.

2 months later, august 2008. the boy called. and told her he's leaving.

finally. he got what he wanted. he got an offer to go to indonesia. medic.

she's happy for him, as she's happy for all of her friends. and, he left.

and she's thinking... "was everything mend to be?

i let him go, and now he's leaving far from me"

why were they letting go of each other?

"friends is da best solution for now"

"he's not totally ready yet"

"maybe...that's the best for now"

last march, he came back to his hometown. for a short holiday.

he didn't told her the exact date.

and, she doesn't asked much. but just wait for him to come back.

and suddenly, he's besides her in a cinema, offering her some pop corns.

that's the biggest surprised ever for her. she smiled the whole day. yes.

she was so happy. and, they met each other again, a day before he left.

now... still they're friends. what's next? we'll see later. =]

and, right here, right now, she is... waiting for him to come back.

to see him again. and, friendship, that's the best for now.

and yet, she's wondering...

does he ever loved her, once, or does he, still ?

and ... what is this? this kinda of feeling.

she left with no answer.