1st situation...
yesterday.
arrived home at 9pm. from college.
TERUS mandi. on lappy. dan buat kerja.
while i'm working on my assignment,
someone asked me "do u have a glue?"
i said no. dah habis since last sem.
time buat final project media society.
and a while later. she asked me again.
"do u have an A4 paper?"
i said no, again. finished it since last sem.
then. after a few hours, i finished it!
save it! and wanna go out 4 a while.
to my friends house, which r my ex-housemates.
cuz i wanna print it there. since. i've no black ink.
i met her. just wanna tell her. i'm going out 4 a while.
just wanna print my stuff. then..
she started it... "u've got everything here!
u're own printer. why can't u just do it here?"
i answered her, "i've no black ink. finished it since last sem"
she said, "can't u buy it? u've no glue! u've no a4 paper!
what kind of student r u? everyday u wanna go out.
go then! it's up 2 u if u wanna come back or not!
i dont care!" and she closed the door...
i called him. i asked him what's wrong with her.
i came home at 9pm since i've to go astro in the evening.
watch AC Disini [live], and b 1 of the audience.
see everything bout broadcasting with my whole classmate.
it's not like i really3 want to come home that late.
and if i'm not around, i'm going out,
it's not like i'm having a date!
i'm doing my work with my friends. goshhh...
this is me! this is how diz ppl of media working.
unlimited time. unpredictable time. it just,
i'm going out 2 do my duty.
as a broadcasting student. yuppp...
then. about the glue & the a4 paper.
it just a small silly things!
i just cant stop crying while i was talking to him.
and he tried to call her...
and just wanna make sure she's fine.
then i just close my door 2. shut down everything.
and try 2 sleep. yeshhh...dats what i did.
i didn't go out 2 print out my work.
i'm just too hurt. too sad.
and...keep on crying. and try to sleep at 1am...
2nd situation
this is about a group assignment.
since our class finished quite early 2day,
1 of us, asked, "so, do u wanna continue it 2day?"
and i just, u know. i'm da TAK KESAH type of ppl.
i'll follow what most of them decided. that's me.
then. i asked 1 of the group member...
"hey. do u wanna do it 2day?"
she said, "no. i've no mood"
"okay. what bout 2morrow?"
she said, "its up 2 u larh. if its 2day its okay then"
and she don't even look at my face while talking to me.
and she looks like she's really3 not in the mood.
and i was like..."okay3. i asked u cuz, she's the one
who asked me, if i wanna do it 2day.
so i just asked da rest of u.
its okay then. later"
hello? i'm just asking. i'm just what they called it...
ORG TGH okay. if x nak buat pon x pela.
no need 2 show me dat face. i know i'll follow others.
i know i'll just smile n laugh if ppl r making joke bout me.
i know i'll just be calm n nice even if u almost make me cry.
i know i'm dat quiet type of person.
i talk when i've too. with someone i want to.
but then. dont b such a stupid 'F' selfish woman.
hey...aku bagi muke, nampak diam pon, aku manusie ah.
bnde2 kecik aku x kesah ar. x ambik hati. lame2...
aku pon de limit gak. bencik ah. ingt aku x leh lawan ke.
aku just mengalah bkn sbb aku lemah. aku mls nak layan.
tu aku x kesah pon ko buat ape. tlg ah..
jgn pndng rendah kat aku. blh je aku nak berlagak dgn ko.
bnyk je kelebihan aku dr ko. just. x de nak lebeyh2.
plz la. everyone has d limit. stop being so selfish.
okay. there's a lot more of BAD n SAD story.
tp sumpah ckp. malas dah nak pk.
malas nak story lg. penat.
penat dgn bnde2 nih.
just nak cakap...
utk semua yg pndg rendah. pijak pale. n x hargai...
aku ni mmg x bagus mane pon.
tp serius. aku taw aku lg bagus dr ko.
aku diam3 aku. diam berisi. bnyk dlm pale otak aku.
kalau aku diam. aku memerhati. analisis. simpan.
kalau perlu je. aku akan cite n kongsi.
kalau aku bnyk cakap. ske hati aku la.
aku nak ckp. ko pehal ah? aku ckp x blh.
aku diam ko pijak pale. semua x kena mcm tuh.
p mampos ah ko. aku pon leh marah.
aku manusie. binatang pon de perasaan.
aku bukan patong. aku bukan taik.
okay? jgn sampai aku da x leh sabar.
ko nak kate aku manje. lemah. lembik.
sbb cpt nangis? ko ape taw?
aku nangis x semestinye aku sdeyh.
aku marah, skt hati, geram pon aku nangis.
aku leteyh pon aku nangis. nape?
sbb at least aku marah pon. aku biar je.
aku mls nak mrh org lain. so...
aku biar sume rase x best tuh aku sorang je tanggung.
ko blh ke tahan marah utk baikkan keadaan?
ko blh ke tahan geram n skt hati ko sorang2?
hurm. sedar diri skit. aku pon leh marah2.
maki2. mencarut ke ape. mmg aku x ske.
tp ingt ar. aku dulu panas baran. anything aku leh buat.
kalo aku x bunuh diri. aku bunuh ko.
bunuh ko slow2? okay. aku taw aku camne.
lebeyh dr ko taw. aku ni. betol3 unpredictable.
jgn diuji. tu jerh. org2 mcm ko nih.
blh blah....p korek kubur awal2.
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