quality of life

semalam ~~~
sy sdeyh. yerrr. sy sdeyh. biarlah sy sdeyh. ia normal!
sy x blh SEKUAT SETABAH SEMATANG SEPOSITIF anda sume.
da lame da sy cube utk sentiasa berfikiran positif. tp.
seorg pun x pernah nak nmpk kan? yer. org selalu nmpk sy.
as a SPOIL. manja. x matang n pk negatif pnye bdk.
ppl. u dont really see me. dont judge me. dont make fooled of me.
i'm not dat stupid. i'm not that heartless. i'm not that naive.
sudah sampai tahap sy tulis d blog. bermakna. da x tertahan.
eh. plz...suke hati. hati sy. kalo hancur. blh ke tlg cantumkan?
x blhkan? stop being so boorish towards me. let me be me.

its a bonus. that i can recover from the sadness easily.
i can get over the madness as fast as the wind past by.
i'm not even a grouchy. i used-2 b one. huh... bad~
grrr... if anything bad happened yesterday. then da next day,
which is 2day, i wouldnt talk bout it anymore.
cuz. its 'da past'. let all the bad things comes to an end.
i wanna get rid of all this bad feelings as time goes by.
but as usual. i will let it go, but i will never 4get...

yesterday night. i've got an SMS from a friend.
more to fmly relative i guess. bkn ayie cousin ku.
tp ayie...aaa. sepupu sy punya bini punya adek~ haha.
same age. in uitm arau~ pandai gile! baik gile!

ayie ; qila! mehla turun perlis! =]

me ; ayie! huu. i was thinking of u ptg td. hee. ayie. qila tgh sdeyh la. wawawa.. qila kan,kalo blh hari2 nak try new things in life n nak gi bnyk tmpt. tp x de chance.

ayie started to call me. but i dont picked up da phone.
i just cant. my tears. try 2 hide it. whuu~~~ be cool. calm2!
lgpon tgh cari uban mama. tammo mama taw anak die x ok.

me ; sorry2. td tgh cari uban mama. kte msg je eh? hee. erm. this year kan da 20. bnyk sgt lg bnde yg qila x try in life. qila nak try bnyk bnde at least once in a lifetime. n nak gi bnyk tmpt.. erm,it's not mama x kasi tp mmg qila sdiri x de chance. bz, monye or perhaps x taw nak gi dgn sape or how. even batu cave pun qila x penah gi.. teringin. ayie. u're lucky. at least da bnyk gi oversea. rock climbing pun qila x pernah buat.. bnyk sgt bnde qila x buat.. ={

ayie ; ok. ingt nk ajak sembang =] erm.. is't? lor qila kn ramai kwn. xkn xtry g apa2 trip ngan diorg. erm aah qila dh 20 kn.. bnyk bnde xtry lg masa remaja dulu? hehe x la.. 21 baru kira besar kn. u still got a yr 2 do so =] ayie pon bnyk bnda xtry lg. even though i got all dat travellin n so on, frankly said, in trade, i got least frenz. at least i guess u got lotz of frenz kn. org kata, klu tmpt paling best tp we're alone, bosan gak jdnya. tp klu g tempat plg bosan tp ada member2 y sekepala jd best gak kn. dats d trade i had =]

me ; haha. erm. ade da tnye die org. tp tu la,mcm2 obstacles.. ade yg parents x kasi,xde duit,x same time cuti,n kdng2 minat x same.. huu. erm tp btol jgk ckp ayie. maybe qila ramai kwn.. eheh. yup.. life is fair. aite? =]

ayie ; aah.. what comes around goes around. we get back twice o more wat we gv. we want smthn we hv 2 sacrifice smthn. dats life =] pasni klu qila nk jln2 kemana2 pon ke, ajak la ayie skali klu xkisah. klu xde pape masalah mendtg, insya allah ayie leh je join =]

me ; hehe.. qila kalo jln pun gi tmpt same je ayie. x berkmbng btol.. eheh. ayie ble cuti? qila baru start sem5 this week...

ayie ; ye ke? x pela.. nnt kita explore tempat2 y patut skali k? hehe. ayie mula ct mid may. qila ayie nak tdo dh. sok kelas pg. kita msg lain sok ea? nitez qila =]

hurmmm... then i felt better!
yesss. see. told ya.
sy x ok kejap je. wawawawa~~~
x reti majuk lame2 sbb xreti pujuk org jgk!
haha XD

anyway. shafinaz. thanks 4 calling at da middle of da nite.
from moscow bout 1 hour aite? huuu~~~ thanks a lot!
and we were planning bout going to malacca.
somewhere in august. with mereka yg lain.
yamin n naiya as well. hope cuti mereka same.

thanks 2 shahli as well. shown up at the right time.
thanks 2 kambink too. juge muncul d saat S.O.S.
mcm taw2 je bdk x matang nih da masok ICU?
haha. ICU mental n gwa. wheee~~

nora. lg skali dselitkan d sini. thanks sbb dtg.
dgn si nana siput. utk balut novel2 sy.
wahahah. 1 fact - sy x reti balut buku!!!
time skola. abah n mama tlg. time d hostel?
my dear d12 gang yg tlg!!! hahahha...

thanks everyone. esp bloggers.
4 teaching me a lot bout life. dr hasil nukilan kalian.
yup. da mcm 'chicken soup 4 da soul' sy. ngeh3...
semua list blog yg sy link d sebelah, sy baca.
tak tipu! sy baca semua! walau x semua sy comment!

again. thanks. 4 improving, making it better.
i mean. the quality of my life.
smile! ^__^